A little over a year ago, God said to me, "Go to YWAM." So, last September, I went to the Sunshine Coast to do my YWAM. While I was on outreach, God said, "Go back to the Sunshine Coast, and continue with YWAM, and do the School of Biblical Studies." At the time, I was all hyped up to go. I didn't have anything back home to tie me down, no debt, nothing to stop me really. That was in February of 2011. SBS starts in September of 2011, so there was a little bit of a "waiting period" so to speak. During that time, I worked at a fast food joint, serving others, using my actions to witness to people, rather then preach to them. When I started there, I was the only Christian worker there, no one got along, and gossiped about everyone else. When I left that joint, there was a sense of peace, and calmness, and no hostility towards one another. Then I left to go work at Bible Camp, leading two discipleship programs during the summer, and cabin lead the Senior Teen week.
During the 6-7 months that I was back in Canada, I went deeper in relationships with people, and my family to. The first time I left for Aus, there wasn't a whole lot of emotional attachment. Yea, I loved people, and held them in respect as I would my own blood relatives. This time, leaving was hard. Really hard. If I were to use an example, It would be like pulling apart a string or something. Being attached to so many people, then just breaking off from them for a year with a simple tug. I mean, I can still communicate with everyone, and talk to them, but there is a little barrier of an ocean apart from all of them. Its just not the same. But, its necessary for me to do. Give up everything to follow the Lord. give up family, give up money, give up time, give up everything.
Before we can let God use us, we must first be willing to be sacrifices ourselves. Before we can say "God, what is it that you want me to do?" we must first be willing to say "yes" no matter what the cost. This is something of a cliché, you know, "of course we must be willing to do anything." But it's so much more then just words. Soooooo much more. Something that I have only started to learn, and until later on in my life, I'll never fully understand. I don't have kids, I don't have a wife, I don't have a house, I don't have a car, I don't have anything except me to offer. Even before I can have family, I must first be willing to give them up. I'm not going to use the classic Abraham offering Isaac at the altar, because I have no idea how Abraham felt, and have no idea how hard it would have been to offer up the only child he had bore. No way.
Before we can let God use us, we must first be willing to be sacrifices ourselves. Before we can say "God, what is it that you want me to do?" we must first be willing to say "yes" no matter what the cost. This is something of a cliché, you know, "of course we must be willing to do anything." But it's so much more then just words. Soooooo much more. Something that I have only started to learn, and until later on in my life, I'll never fully understand. I don't have kids, I don't have a wife, I don't have a house, I don't have a car, I don't have anything except me to offer. Even before I can have family, I must first be willing to give them up. I'm not going to use the classic Abraham offering Isaac at the altar, because I have no idea how Abraham felt, and have no idea how hard it would have been to offer up the only child he had bore. No way.
The story I will use is any story where Jesus heals people. The common thing that they all have is that Jesus showed compassion on them, and healed them. Then they went away rejoicing, and telling others about the what Christ has done for them. This is all I can do now. Rather then try and dwell on what I might have back home, I can rejoice with the mercies and blessings that Christ has given me today.
God Bless, David.
God Bless, David.
